My heart is very heavy today....as we mourn the life of Joshua, we celebrate Sissy's 10th bday. I was trying to decide how to do this day because it feels so bittersweet. We're all hurting about losing Josh and also this year was so very very rough on Sissy. She has fought tumors, bronchitis, severe dehydration and some other stuff that she wouldn't want me to talk about in public, and just keeps on fighting. So I celebrate this....
Sissy has changed me. It's hard to explain but I know I've never been very good at getting too close to people. I am very loving/generous, even tending to care too much all the time...but I just get scared of being hurt, which is the risk of love. HOWEVER to have the opportunity to feel love that is unconditional, unfiltered, with complete abandon of self....to love like that and feel love like that is the miracle.
We've been through a lot of crap together...she knows ALL my secrets...ALL the stuff I don't like about me and she yet still she just loves me more.
I celebrate THAT love...the love we all have and love that gets reciprocated, especially from our furbabies and best fur-ends.
HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY Sissy Northey.
REST IN PEACE Joshua Brown!